Saturday, October 21, 2006

Special Layout

Today would've been my brother's birthday and I wanted to share a layout I made since he was on my mind.



Journaling:


Born 3 weeks late and with encephelocele. You weren't supposed to make it and we were guaranteed you would not see your 5th birthday. The doctors advised Mom and Dad to put you in a home and forget you existed. Instead, they brought you home and cared for you with everything they could, powered by their immeausurable love for you. They pressed on as long as they could, finally realizing that you needed more medical attention then they could provide in our modest apartment. They did put you in a home but they never, ever forgot you. We visited you as often as we could, we prayed for you every day. Melanie and I grew up always knowing life with a disabled brother. Because of this, compassion and sensitivity have been grounded so deep in our hearts. We were told more times then I could remember that you were not going to survive. Because of this, we were always waiting, always expecting it. And when it finally happened, when you were just 18 years old, I think we all felt the hole that was your absence almost immediately. When you spend 18 years preparing to lose someone, and then it happens, you feel like "....now what....?" There is a whole part of your life that is over and you knew it was coming but once it has, part of you is missing. We weren't sad for you because we knew your life was painful. We knew that you were now in heaven, perfect and whole and in the loving arms of our Savior. We rejoiced for you. But for us....there was an emptiness. The only comfort was knowing that your life was not in vain. You taught us to be more gentle and compassionate, you brought our family together in times when we were most broken, you changed the lives of countless people who came to know you during your time on earth. You made a difference in this world. And now I look forward to seeing you in heaven. I am so curious what you look like in your perfect form. What will your voice sound like? Will I recognize you by your eyes or your smile? I know I will have stories for you. Will you have stories for me? Will you remember our quiet times together, when I would whisper to you how much I loved you? Will you be able to tell me what life was like for you? Will you have forgotten? Something tells me that none of that will matter though. Because what I am most looking forward to, on that day when we reunite in heaven, is seeing you run - strong and free.


Credits:


Naturally You papers, Cool Buckles, Cool Buttons by Corina Nielsen (www.thedigishoppe.com)
Felt corner, Stitches, Jazzy Snazzy Blooms by Gina Miller (www.ginamillerdesigns.com)
Grosgrain ribbon by Heather Ann Melzer (www.heatheranndesigns.com)
Polaroid by Gina Cabrera (www.digitaldesignessentials.com)
Jewelry tag by Michelle Coleman (www.scrapartist.com)
Paper tear by Steph Krush (www.digitalpapertearing.com)
Drop shadow actions by Traci Murphy (www.tracimurphydesigns.com)
Fonts: FG Script Elegant, AL Sandra, AL Old Remington

19 comments:

Jennifer said...

Wow Shannon, what a beautiful, beautiful layout! How did I not know you had a brother? This is such a wonderful tribute to him!

Anonymous said...

Shannon, this is so beautiful and sad, thank you for sharing.

Peggy said...

Shannon, What a wonderful LO. The tribute to your brother is so moving that I'm sitting in front of my computer with tears down my face. BTW, it'd my brother's birthday today too!
Peggy

Elaine said...

Wow. Tears in my eyes. Beautiful and touching tribute to your brother. I'm pretty sure he loves it too!

Melanie said...

Such touching journaling. Wonderful job getting that all out... I'm glad you could share that! Happy Birthday, Christopher.

Melanie

Anonymous said...

(((((hugs))))) Shannon- I bet you miss him so much. :( This definitely explains why you are such a warm and caring person.

Happy Birthday Christopher and thanks for being a good brother to Shannon!

Beautiful journaling Shannon. This is what scrapping is all about.

God bless,
Laurie G

Shawn said...

Laurie G said it perfectly. This is so beautiful Shannon. Brought tears to my eyes too. Thank you so much for sharing this.

Hugs,

Shawn

Helen said...

Beautiful journalling Shannon. To me this what our wonderful hobby is really all about.

momy4him said...

beautiful layout shannon and a wonderful tribute to your brother!
gimme kleenex!

Mom said...

Hi honey... Thanks for sharing in such a beautiful way! You said it all so perfectly, I would love to have this printed out and framed for my wall.... I love you!

Mom

Laura said...

What an adorable picture Shannon, but even more than that, your journaling is so touching and so sweet and just gave me chills to read. Thank you so much for sharing that, I always enjoy reading your writing, but this was just extra special.

kim said...

I've got goosebumps. Thank you for sharing his story with us.

jennV said...

Shannon, as usual you have moved me. thanks for that special tribute today, it helps me remember the beauty of life.

Maegan said...

Shannon that is such a touching layout. I had no idea about your brother. You did a very eloquent job of sharing his impact on your life. Beautiful.

sarahbcmc said...

Oh my, Shannon, I had no idea (why would I). The 'waiting', followed by the 'what next'...I can relate to that one million times over. Love to you, sweetheart.

Anonymous said...

That was beautiful Shannon - brought tears to my eyes...

Anonymous said...

Beautiful journaling and such a wonderful tribute to your brother. What a miracle to survive that long after doctors guarantee your will not. I am sure that your brother knows he was loved and that is what gave him the will to survive.

marsha said...

Oh my, what a touching and beautiful tribute to your brother and your life with him. This is so well written. Wow!

blushbutter said...

this layout and journalling has really touched me, thank-you :)